Ok.... So I decided to go to work today ONLY because I need the money right now.... I went in at 12:30 and I told them I wasn't staying any longer than 6 tonight but it didn't matter because I ended up leaving earlier than that anyways.
It has been a hard day because it has been about a year since I was forced into having my abortion.... you are probably wondering how I was forced into it? Well when I was with my ex he was really abusive, he shattered my privacy window to my truck and damn near flipped it over on to it's side and along with all of that he almost broke my leg by trying to pull me out of his car...... all this took place when I was pregnant..... It seemed to me that as soon as he found out I was pregnant the abuse got even worse. His mom warned me and told me I needed to leave because of the abuse but me being thick headed I didn't listen. It finally clicked in my head that I was done with him when I realized how discussed I was with him, just looking at him made me sick to my stomach. When he left for Texas for a funeral that is when my mom helped me move back home, my mom and brother sat me down and told me if I have this child I will be in a living hell for the rest of my life. I didn't want to do it because I was already attached at this point but I had to do what was right for me and the baby, I didn't want to put my child through any of that crap and I had already seen how he treated his 9yr old boy.......
Anyways, that is a long story short..... and yes I am devastated still.... no mother wants to have to do that but like I said before it was for the best. Because I had the abortion I think that asshole took my dogs out from my backyard when I wasn't home one night, I came home the next morning to find them gone, he knew I loved my dogs with all my heart...... I guess karma will get him in the end, at least I hope so.
That is the reason I am not having such a good day and also due to no sleep last night.... I just hope one day this pain with subside a little, I tried really hard not to cry at work but it didn't work. Hopefully tomorrow is a better day. Thanks for letting me rant
It has been a hard day because it has been about a year since I was forced into having my abortion.... you are probably wondering how I was forced into it? Well when I was with my ex he was really abusive, he shattered my privacy window to my truck and damn near flipped it over on to it's side and along with all of that he almost broke my leg by trying to pull me out of his car...... all this took place when I was pregnant..... It seemed to me that as soon as he found out I was pregnant the abuse got even worse. His mom warned me and told me I needed to leave because of the abuse but me being thick headed I didn't listen. It finally clicked in my head that I was done with him when I realized how discussed I was with him, just looking at him made me sick to my stomach. When he left for Texas for a funeral that is when my mom helped me move back home, my mom and brother sat me down and told me if I have this child I will be in a living hell for the rest of my life. I didn't want to do it because I was already attached at this point but I had to do what was right for me and the baby, I didn't want to put my child through any of that crap and I had already seen how he treated his 9yr old boy.......
Anyways, that is a long story short..... and yes I am devastated still.... no mother wants to have to do that but like I said before it was for the best. Because I had the abortion I think that asshole took my dogs out from my backyard when I wasn't home one night, I came home the next morning to find them gone, he knew I loved my dogs with all my heart...... I guess karma will get him in the end, at least I hope so.
That is the reason I am not having such a good day and also due to no sleep last night.... I just hope one day this pain with subside a little, I tried really hard not to cry at work but it didn't work. Hopefully tomorrow is a better day. Thanks for letting me rant
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ozshark:
I watch My Name is Earl... Karma will get him!!!!
spinhouse247:
Keep your head up, things always get better.