suiciety

i never meant to sound like this. could almost look beautiful. if i could choose. i'll wreck it. what if i miscalculate? evasive? ya i heard me tell myself that once. i can't choose... only you. runaway? sure, just a few things i think you should know. don't let me down. should i ask someone to do something that they have not reason to do? to inspire the way i was inspired could invoke random streaks of being alive. i won't do it along i can. you simply must. this is what living like this does.........