suiciety

your not so sure if your sure of anything anymore, just returning the favor that you never gave. you hold accountable for his own death, the man you killed. bastard suns. we tend to knife ourselves. here, some praise and blood for adding to the collection of scars. you walk into a room, can you feel it drain the solitude? someone is falling down, it smells like fear. your heart is atrophied. i'll light a match. i feel what you give me, tell me again how i am acting. the childs mother's tainted face. i know what everyone says. they told me the same thing. i can paint your smeared image just as well as you sketch mine. i would sacrifice so much more if i know it would be just fine. i would do it, if i thought everything would be just fine. this will always be the thing of tomorrow. please i am running out of energy. ive gone home from worse then this. it always comes close, but you never come easy. i still know everything. this isn't whats keeping you up nights. i may have just found something that feeds into the inconsistency of my moods. its a shame that i don't think you will notice. you are keeping a good pace, you still haven't let me down. what i have gotten myself into feels deeper than the slash inches from my wrist. please keep in mind that this is what living like this does. that should explain everything. regardless i will still wait for your call. can you guess what my hearts been up to? so honestly how could you say those things? this is all wrong, and it shows. don't worry sweetie, i already know. i have no feeling because i am scared. i'm miserable, and your just getting started.