I think I'm going to take another break from myself and everyone else for a bit....I feel I need to be a shut in.
I don't know how I can get out of this stupid rut I'm in
My classes at school are going terribly this semester, I have said this before but it boggles my mind at how shitty it is going....after hearing that you can't do something or you aren't that good enough, you eventually start to believe it. My teacher tells me she doesn't know why every artist struggles to be different than the rest when they are trying to illustrate a common idea of the general masses...she says is it necessary to be different? So what this tells me is that I should be like every other bullshit hack photographer and artist....take pictures of flowers and trees and feet and all the other stupid things that most people think are good pictures, this way I will be a well known photographer, I shouldn't be diverse...I should be like everyone else in the population and succumb to reality, or maybe just reality TV. I shouldn't struggle and just give in is what I feel she pretty much told me, thank god for that nugget of inspiration.
I wish I could fight again....I miss it a lot, my shoulder starts acting up if I throw too many punches though.
I caught a cold on top of everything else, sore throats are horrid....I ate for the first time in 24 hours...I was starting to get the shakes I was so fucking hungry, man I hate that.
I don't know how I can get out of this stupid rut I'm in
My classes at school are going terribly this semester, I have said this before but it boggles my mind at how shitty it is going....after hearing that you can't do something or you aren't that good enough, you eventually start to believe it. My teacher tells me she doesn't know why every artist struggles to be different than the rest when they are trying to illustrate a common idea of the general masses...she says is it necessary to be different? So what this tells me is that I should be like every other bullshit hack photographer and artist....take pictures of flowers and trees and feet and all the other stupid things that most people think are good pictures, this way I will be a well known photographer, I shouldn't be diverse...I should be like everyone else in the population and succumb to reality, or maybe just reality TV. I shouldn't struggle and just give in is what I feel she pretty much told me, thank god for that nugget of inspiration.
I wish I could fight again....I miss it a lot, my shoulder starts acting up if I throw too many punches though.
I caught a cold on top of everything else, sore throats are horrid....I ate for the first time in 24 hours...I was starting to get the shakes I was so fucking hungry, man I hate that.
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i know how you feel. this week is going to be totally insane. i've been sick, too. i don't know if it was a cold or just really bad allergies.
i might be able to fly out for thanksgiving! keep your fingers crossed. I have been looking at flights and they are pretty reasonable. i've been making mad phat cash at the bar, so we'll see. i know that my sister doesn't have as long of a break as i do, too. so my p's just might fly me out.
good luck at your crit. i wish that i could be there, acutally. i think that it would be really cool to be in a class with you. challenge everything, right?
well, i hope you feel better.
maybe i can catch you later for a chat.
bye bye for now!
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'dora
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