suicidesic

Listening to what I have to say is like having 29 consecutive orgasms

I had a dream last night, I dreamt I won an acting contest and did so well that they awarded me all three prizes 1st 2nd and 3rd, (the irony is I am a horrible actor). I got some coupons for a tanning salon and $2500, of that prob 1750 of it was in cash and the rest was a check. I was so happy, I could get out of debt, my dad was there too and he was like sweet now you can pay off your car and still have money left over to take care of your credit card!!! I awoke shortly after that, how depressing....to wake up and not have any money and remember your dad doesn't ACTUALLY care about you. The dream was so nice, it made me relaxed for just a little bit......

I've almost been awake for 24 hours straight, go me, I read a whole book tonight at work....it was THAT slow it was called The Villains Guide To Better Living....not nearly as good as it sounds I must say.... it has its moments, kinda like an Ernest movie

DO you ever get the feeling like this is your world, and everyone else is just living in it....sort of like the Truman Show...I get paranoid that I'm being surveyed by everyone and people laugh and cry at my life....I think I inflate my actual worth as a person in my brain