suicidesic

So this guy went crazy last semester in my photo department....we all thought he was expelled because he literally went crazy but, no he is back this semester and he has his own fucking show. I wish I could take the semester off to go crazy and get on meds and work on some photo work then come back and be awarded a show....but this is me and that kind of thing will never happen... Everyone from last semester that I'm seeing at school that was a decent friend of mine seems to be giving me a cold shoulder, in all honesty I haven't done anything different to get this treatment...whoa is me, I know bla bla bla

I was told today that even if I work hard on a project people don't care about it....it doesn't make it effective, this is true but fuck him...because with his small amount of effort I still think his shit sucks, him being a grad student and all his work should surpass mine.

I have to work in like 10 minutes because we are having an early show tonight at work, meaning I have to come home afterwards to do my japanese homework for tomorrow and then wake up for class at 9. I think I'm going to take up some bad habit this semester....hmm...maybe alcoholism as a means of escape, I might even sleep in one of the advanced darkrooms...I don't know.

Coming back to school I'm slowly realizing that all of my friends, (girls being the majority) have all become prostitutes over the summer, wtf their deal is I don't know All of the people that have told me I can do wonderful things are gone now...what to do what to do, maybe I could make my own super species of people who I actually get along with instead of pale eyed blank stares of the living dead around me, maybe I'll work on that this semester. Oh yeah and fuck everyone who doesn't have to work AND go to school full time.

This is me burning out on life......I need a breather