suicidesic

It doesn't happen often...but I am at a loss for words

My girl Alidora is leaving in about 6 hours from now, going home to Chicago so she can do her things that she needs to, this is a painful point for me to handle. I'm being selfish, sorry.

Maybe writing will help smooth things out with myself, she is a great girl, beautiful girl, creative and smart girl. I probably won't see her for like 4 months maybe, give or take.

I haven't been as close to anyone in 2 years, I have my many reasons....and I forgot that one of them was that saying goodbye is really hard for me to do... I'd rather have the shit kicked out of me than have to do it, at least it would explain why I always feel so beat up afterwards.

This has been depressed ramblings and I apologize, all my friends at work just want me to go drink with them...I really don't think it will help me whatsoever because I usually go overboard in these situations....I'll stop before I write too much. Your friend, SIC