Ugh! I hate feeling sick, I think I ate something yesterday that didn't agree with me cause I can't stop throwing up!
I also think I fucked up today by not going to work. I think the coke guy was going to be there since his away message has his work away message up. *sighs*
I wish I could just hang out with him as a friend once in a wile, nothing more. As much I would love to do lot's of naughty things to him I could never do it because I'm still with my boyfriend and I'm not the cheating type. I have had it done to me one to many time's before and I would never be able to bring my self to do it to another when I know how much it hurts! That's just me!
Well to tell you about my new year's eve!
It started off ok since I was still adding every thing back to my computer because of stupid fucking people and I'm still not done with!
My mom made a huge dinner of Surf & Turf (Yummy) I ate every thing on my plate plus some extra since I didn't eat any thing all day because I was on my stupid computer still fixing it!
Then later on into the night my friend Lizz called me asking me if my boyfriend and I wanted to go play pool with her boyfriend, her boyfriend's little brother, and her self. I was all up to it but I knew my boyfriend wasn't going to be! I swear he is the most anti-social person I ever met. I mean I can be bad sometime's but not as bad as him.
She told me that she was going to stop by to show me and my mom her ultasound picturs and then we could decide then if we wanted to go or not then.
She got to my house at about 9pm, showed us her pictures and then begged my boyfriend to get out of the house and play pool. He finnaly agreed but when we got there he didn't even play with us. He just sat to the side and talked on my phone.
Then I got my self into some major trouble by telling Lizz things about the coke guy wile we were playing pool. I thought he couldn't hear me since his ear was glued to my phone but i was wrong! I guess He ended up hearing every thing I had said to her. He ended up leaving to go sit in the car for the rest of the time.
The place we went to closed early so I went out to the car, said my good byes to lizz and got in. Then all hell broke loose. He started yelling at me and every thing and then broke up with me because I was hideing things from him. Then I came out and told him every thing finnaly about how I felt and that I tired of not doing any thing but going to dinner and a movie. I didn't not want that to be the rest of my life!
The whole way home we talked about every thing that was bothering us about our relationship and realized alot of things for once in our entire relationship! It was nice! We really opened up to eachother, something that hasn't happend between us in a very long time!
So there was my lovely new years! I didn't even get to see the ball drop and to top all off that off, no one even called me to wish me a Happy New year!
*Edit*
I think I just fucked up what I had with the coke guy!
Why is that all I seam to know how to do?!?
I just want to cry my eye's out now! I don't want to lose him as a friend, I can't handle that again!
Why does this always happen to me? all I want is to be happy!
I also think I fucked up today by not going to work. I think the coke guy was going to be there since his away message has his work away message up. *sighs*
I wish I could just hang out with him as a friend once in a wile, nothing more. As much I would love to do lot's of naughty things to him I could never do it because I'm still with my boyfriend and I'm not the cheating type. I have had it done to me one to many time's before and I would never be able to bring my self to do it to another when I know how much it hurts! That's just me!
Well to tell you about my new year's eve!
It started off ok since I was still adding every thing back to my computer because of stupid fucking people and I'm still not done with!
My mom made a huge dinner of Surf & Turf (Yummy) I ate every thing on my plate plus some extra since I didn't eat any thing all day because I was on my stupid computer still fixing it!
Then later on into the night my friend Lizz called me asking me if my boyfriend and I wanted to go play pool with her boyfriend, her boyfriend's little brother, and her self. I was all up to it but I knew my boyfriend wasn't going to be! I swear he is the most anti-social person I ever met. I mean I can be bad sometime's but not as bad as him.
She told me that she was going to stop by to show me and my mom her ultasound picturs and then we could decide then if we wanted to go or not then.
She got to my house at about 9pm, showed us her pictures and then begged my boyfriend to get out of the house and play pool. He finnaly agreed but when we got there he didn't even play with us. He just sat to the side and talked on my phone.
Then I got my self into some major trouble by telling Lizz things about the coke guy wile we were playing pool. I thought he couldn't hear me since his ear was glued to my phone but i was wrong! I guess He ended up hearing every thing I had said to her. He ended up leaving to go sit in the car for the rest of the time.
The place we went to closed early so I went out to the car, said my good byes to lizz and got in. Then all hell broke loose. He started yelling at me and every thing and then broke up with me because I was hideing things from him. Then I came out and told him every thing finnaly about how I felt and that I tired of not doing any thing but going to dinner and a movie. I didn't not want that to be the rest of my life!
The whole way home we talked about every thing that was bothering us about our relationship and realized alot of things for once in our entire relationship! It was nice! We really opened up to eachother, something that hasn't happend between us in a very long time!
So there was my lovely new years! I didn't even get to see the ball drop and to top all off that off, no one even called me to wish me a Happy New year!
*Edit*
I think I just fucked up what I had with the coke guy!
Why is that all I seam to know how to do?!?
I just want to cry my eye's out now! I don't want to lose him as a friend, I can't handle that again!
Why does this always happen to me? all I want is to be happy!
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[Edited on Jan 03, 2005 10:44AM]
On another hand - why do you always type in bold?
[Edited on Jan 04, 2005 6:20PM]