suicidemarine

So I don't know if this is totally crazy or not, but I have been listening to a lot of Blind Melon today.. And I have been thinking that I need to get my shit in gear and get it going or I might end up like Shannon. Not dead but I might as well be I think. I really want more than anything to find that someone special. I already feel dead inside.. Even as good as I have been feeling letely I still feel I need that someone to complete my soul. I need it to feel complete, and I'm really not trying to quote Jerry McGuire. I want and need someone that will send me to place of euphoria. I might have that candidate but who knows if she'll accept me. I hope she will. I just want to be wanted. I want to share me with her. It seemes she is a little skeptical and that is normal i guess. But, still I want her to accept me as hers. I just hope she knows how much I want her to. And she doesn't feel as weird as I do. I really like this girl... any advice?????
Please anyone....I need all I can get...

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