10 things I hate about myself:
1 - I say one thing and do another
2 - I procrastinate
3 - I critisize others for faults I also have
4 - My creativity and sense of rhythm come and go
5 - My egomania
6 - I don't pay enough attention
7 - I think too much
8 - I hold on to the past...
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1 - I say one thing and do another
2 - I procrastinate
3 - I critisize others for faults I also have
4 - My creativity and sense of rhythm come and go
5 - My egomania
6 - I don't pay enough attention
7 - I think too much
8 - I hold on to the past...
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adelina:
#7 you think too much is the evilest one on your hate list. overanalysis of your imperfections inevitably leads to discontent and therefore unhappiness.
adelina:
what exactly is a grasshopper mentality? 
I've got a bad feeling. The moon looks wrong and and I see Shiva stretching her calves. If feel a long dark night coming. No pleas will be heard, the gavel has already dropped. She's coming and She's gonna clean house.
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adelina:
bad intuitive feelings usually turn out to be nothing after all, so need to worry! 
adelina:
Crochet is very difficult but very rewarding! 
I guess I should update. I had a great idea to write about for a journal entry, but I've forgotten it. I seem to forget a lot of stuff.
So tired today. I slept really late, but I kept waking up with acid reflux every two hours becuase I foolishly ate right before bed.
I was a pretty big fool all day yesterday. Ever get...
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So tired today. I slept really late, but I kept waking up with acid reflux every two hours becuase I foolishly ate right before bed.
I was a pretty big fool all day yesterday. Ever get...
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menotyou:
I think you're cool.
Props.
Props.
venice:
Why do you have to say things that make so much sense?
(You didn't mention that I remind you of Her. ...I'm flattered
)
I think my heart is in it. I'm just not sure about the rest of me. And the worst that could happen, I've been through before. I'm just terrible at making decisions when I don't have all the information possible (like knowledge of the future or something handy like that, you know).
(You didn't mention that I remind you of Her. ...I'm flattered
)
I think my heart is in it. I'm just not sure about the rest of me. And the worst that could happen, I've been through before. I'm just terrible at making decisions when I don't have all the information possible (like knowledge of the future or something handy like that, you know).
Somebody once said:
Masturbastion and procrastination are a lot a like.
They both feel good while you're doing it,
But afterwards you just feel like you've fucked yourself.
Maybe I should abandon my math hopes and save my other class where it's not too late to fix my fuck ups.
Masturbastion and procrastination are a lot a like.
They both feel good while you're doing it,
But afterwards you just feel like you've fucked yourself.
Maybe I should abandon my math hopes and save my other class where it's not too late to fix my fuck ups.
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venice:
Honestly, my morals wouldn't let me do someone else's homework either. But I would be more than happy to help, if I could. Helping is not my strong point, but I would do what I could. When is your final, anyway?
(Ha, your birthday is the day my physics class starts)
You can't ever have enough drinking in one week. That's what I think anyway, in my close-to-alcoholic state. You're right, it must be the Scotch-Irish. No normal, sweet and innocent 20-year old girl should like drinking this much.
(Ha, your birthday is the day my physics class starts)
You can't ever have enough drinking in one week. That's what I think anyway, in my close-to-alcoholic state. You're right, it must be the Scotch-Irish. No normal, sweet and innocent 20-year old girl should like drinking this much.
adelina:
are YOU the somebody who once said that? it's a good comparison you've made.
where do you go to school?
where do you go to school?
Must...
Maintain....
Consciousness.....
Nah
Maintain....
Consciousness.....
Nah
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venice:
Yes, I do have ninja powers
And I would most definitely use the words "benefit" and "Suicidal_george" in the same sentence. (I guess that's obvious, since I did...)
And I would most definitely use the words "benefit" and "Suicidal_george" in the same sentence. (I guess that's obvious, since I did...)
venice:
Will doing your homework even benefit you at this point? I think you should just fuck it and do something fun instead. But I'm a bad influence and you shouldn't listen to anything I say.
I went to bed before midnight, which shows just how tired I was. I never go to bed before midnight.
I think the heart thing is just stress. My plan is to take many baths and drink a lot of tea, and try to breathe slowly, and hope it goes away. If it's still doing it in a couple of weeks, I'll consider having it checked out, but I will never get around to it, because I am a lazy bastard
I went to bed before midnight, which shows just how tired I was. I never go to bed before midnight.
I think the heart thing is just stress. My plan is to take many baths and drink a lot of tea, and try to breathe slowly, and hope it goes away. If it's still doing it in a couple of weeks, I'll consider having it checked out, but I will never get around to it, because I am a lazy bastard
Arrrggh! I don't know what i'm doing...
venice:
No one knows what they're doing, it's just the way life goes...
Argh, I'm no good at saying anything anymore... I'm not helpful in the least. I miss getting pages of comments from you, so I'm going to try to be around more.
Argh, I'm no good at saying anything anymore...
I'm not helpful in the least. I miss getting pages of comments from you, so I'm going to try to be around more.The boys are becoming a handful. I like running with them, but where I become tired they become stronger and stronger. It's way better excercise for them than me. Damn 2yr olds with their limitless energy. We go to the park and most of the time they just stand around. We leave and the great squirrel hunt starts again. They remember every place they have...
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adelina:
you need to update your journal entry. forgot to ask before, why do you need to do math? 
[Edited on May 16, 2004 2:34PM]
[Edited on May 16, 2004 2:34PM]
venice:
Hey, I'm not gone gone, only sort of gone. I will be around, like now. Probably only mostly in the middle of the night, and with a slow internet connection. But I'm not totally gone, so you shouldn't be sad about it
I heard my roommate and his friend are going to wyoming first on their tornado hunt. If the weather doesn't look promising, then they are going to South dakota. They got a good scheme, they got tickets (to ball games and a M Doughty concert) for the evenings when they can't hunt. They got storm watch ID and crazy antennas all over the truck. I...
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adelina:
what's in the package you received?
venice:
Too bad, no rain. Late night walks always settle my mind. Something about being able to breathe, and the fact that it's dark. It's now 4:00 and the statistics is as done as it's going to get. If I were a better person I would keep trying until the morning... but I'm not, so I'm going to bed.
So a big adventure is a foot. My roommate and his old grade school friend are going tornado hunting. His friend works in weather (he does the weather graphics and such for a bunch of different stations) and my roommate does radios and communications. I was listening to their plan and it sounds like they have a lot of it worked out. They got some...
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adelina:
where is your friend - in kansas or some other midwestern state? isn't that where tornadoes live? ha. ha. i automatically think - wizard of oz - when tornadoes are mentioned.
adelina:
p.s.
and when i hear A-B-B-A, i think dancing queen. whoops.
and when i hear A-B-B-A, i think dancing queen. whoops.
I got a couple things to write about, but I'm so fucking tired. Got company too, interesting story. Why do I type so slow? Fucking tiredbed. Ever notice that the word bed looks like a bed? That's fucking tiredbed. Seacrest, Out!
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adelina:
are you a fan of r.s.? 
venice:
It is surprising. One day you're feeling great, and thinking about how amazing it is that you're feeling great. And the next day all you want to do is hide in the corner of your room and no see anyone. I think it happens to me a lot if I've been really social for a while. I get overwhelmed. I completely agree with the lack of creativity part. It's the worst. That and the lack of brain functioning at all. I can never think about math when i'm like that. It sometimes makes me wish I were an english major or something. You can read without thinking too much, but you need a brain to do math.
If you're playing Lou Reed I'll definitely be there. He came to town a little while back. My dad and I were going to go together, but the tickets were something like $50 each, and then my dad was out of town anyway. It was lame. I really wanted to go.
I don't like thinking about people dying. I hate the thought of someone or something just being gone, and there's nothing you can do about it. I cling to things desperately, to everything. I'm so afraid of losing stuff. But yes, mindful of the moment. I've been getting a little better at that.
If you're playing Lou Reed I'll definitely be there. He came to town a little while back. My dad and I were going to go together, but the tickets were something like $50 each, and then my dad was out of town anyway. It was lame. I really wanted to go.
I don't like thinking about people dying. I hate the thought of someone or something just being gone, and there's nothing you can do about it. I cling to things desperately, to everything. I'm so afraid of losing stuff. But yes, mindful of the moment. I've been getting a little better at that.
feeling lame.
nothing is all that funny and everything that i've written seems to underline that fact that things would be better if i just shutup more.
sometimes i think that i live my life like a ghost. In and out, like I never was there.
who was that tall quiet guy?
nothing is all that funny and everything that i've written seems to underline that fact that things would be better if i just shutup more.
sometimes i think that i live my life like a ghost. In and out, like I never was there.
who was that tall quiet guy?
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adelina:
karma is john lennon.
adelina:
tall quiet guy = you 
I need to find a new place to go for open mics. There used to be a spot by my work but it was cancelled due to lack of interest. I've been trying to go to the ash street saloon but they've been having regular shows on monday and when they do have an OM then it fills up in 15 minutes. I've been fantasizing...
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venice:
Hey, there's always more time for talking. No need to worry about it.
The three-day party happens because the seniors turn in their theses on Friday. But then we have to have reading week where they all have their thesis orals (i'm so scared of that) and the rest of us benefit from their suffering by getting a week off. And then there's finals week. Then it's over. I admit, it's a little silly to have a giant party and then have work to do, but we do get a whole week off here. Yesterday was just momentum drinking, which needs to stop.
You should totally do a park block concert! I would go see you. It would be awesome.
Why are you romantically incompatible? Are you sure you are? Because you can't really be sure unless you try... right? Of course, I'm just too excited about anything that has romantic possibilities for anyone right now. I need to get out and meet people. I'm going crazy here from pent-up romance wanting (and I even hate romance).
The three-day party happens because the seniors turn in their theses on Friday. But then we have to have reading week where they all have their thesis orals (i'm so scared of that) and the rest of us benefit from their suffering by getting a week off. And then there's finals week. Then it's over. I admit, it's a little silly to have a giant party and then have work to do, but we do get a whole week off here. Yesterday was just momentum drinking, which needs to stop.
You should totally do a park block concert! I would go see you. It would be awesome.
Why are you romantically incompatible? Are you sure you are? Because you can't really be sure unless you try... right? Of course, I'm just too excited about anything that has romantic possibilities for anyone right now. I need to get out and meet people. I'm going crazy here from pent-up romance wanting (and I even hate romance).