so thursdays the big court date to see if i can at least get visitation rights for colton from the ex...over $2000 dollars and 4 months later it will all come down to this and to be honest i don't think i have ever felt so many mixed emotions at any other point in my life...1.worry, like what if i do all this and the judge doesn't see my side and lets her keep custody. 2.anger, the result from 1. 3.hopeless, would also be the result from #1 because if i lose this i honestly feel my life would be worthless and i would really have nothing to carry on for if little man is not in my life in some aspect..but also there's 4.elation, because i could not describe in words what finally getting to hold my son after 4 months and then spending the future working on bonds his mother tried to burn would be like...just wish it would get here so i could get it over with either way already...
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mustangbeauty:
I call that Hamster in the Wheel, am very familiar with that one from times past and once in awhile present. Eventually your ball will catch onto something and you will have traction. Focus on your direction hun! easier said then done i know...
mustangbeauty:
Very welcome and any time. Sometimes it seems everything happens at once, just want a break, even a small one but nothing comes. I feel for you!! I know the breaking point all to well. Have faith if not for you then for your son, it's what gets me through when i am rock bottom.