sugary_dynamite

I am absolutely loosing my mind right now. I've gone through every movie I own at least once. I've played every game I have. I've completely torn apart the code for myspace and have started re-structuring it to make it less ugly, and I've found.....there's no way. I'm listening to calm soothing music and my pulse and twitchiness just keeps rising and rising.

My cheeks are still poofy, but I don't care. I want to run a marathon and then eat a huge steak. I want human contact. Which leads me to the next thought sequence.

Why am I dating someone that can't remember having an hour conversation with me, calming me down and saying he would come visit me the following day? Why am I dating someone that keeps making me cry without even knowing it?

Fuck.....whatever.....I shouldn't be left alone in my head.