sugary_dynamite

I'm fed up today. I'm tired of drama. I'm tired of giving advice. And I'm freaking exhausted with getting advice.

I've been trying to learn how to crochet, and its just not working. I can only do one thing, and honestly I think it looks like shit. Everyone says it looks nice, but FEH. I'm done with it for the night. I can't handle this shit. I feel completely freaking alone tonight, and I haven't felt like this in a long time.

Sorry for the moody post, I just feel horrid tonight. I'm making myself sick because of all of the rollercoaster bullshit I've put myself through.

And I'm out of fucking smokes. So, I'm going to go to the store, come home, smoke 2 cigs in a row and hide in my pillows.

I miss having roommates. I miss my friends back east. I miss going to Double T when I feel like crap, and getting a pot of coffee, slice of cheesecake and 3 ash trays. I miss waitresses that are nice, and know me by name.

Fuck what the hell triggered this shit. I'm out.

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Update: Went to the store, talked to dmuff and eating Lucky Charms. I've cheered up a bit, but being alone sucks still.

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Everyone go say happy birthday to Nikalovick. He turns old today-ish (Feb 1) and he's been putting up with me for long about 10 years now. He deserves some nice people after that