sugarpill

Tomorrow is the first day of Halloween weekend. For the first time I just want it over with so that I can move on with my life. It's going to suck, like every year except one, and I've stopped pretending that maybe it'll be okay. I've started to not look over my shoulder so much, and Halloween already feels like something that's behind me.

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Last night we played dress up until way after midnight. I think watching someone you're in love with try on different outfits is sexy. Watching them put clothes on, the way they look hot in those clothes for a few minutes, and then watching them strip out of their clothes, over and over again. Seduction.

But... All dressed up, with no place to go.

I cannot stop thinking about the end of the world.
But it's only the end of the week.

Spending the night, and the morning, throwing up is not really the kind of catharsis I had in mind.

I'm so lucky to have Kathleen.

This week has been very frustrating. I have a bunch of stuff going on in the art department, but I haven't had much opportunity to do anything with it. Things keep popping up and they have to be dealt with- and it's just stupid shit, too. Like my cable modem dying. Like going to see The Corporation. Things got so bad I wasn't reading, wasn't...
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It's been way too long since I've had to opportunity to sit down and sketch some SGs, but I was finally able to do so. I did about a half dozen and wasn't really happy with most of them. Mostly I'm out of practice. But you'll find two (Sicily and Blyss) in the sgfanart folder of my pics.

In other news, I have no fewer...
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This was one of the worst weeks for me in a long time.

Once, there was a Really Good Vibe that I was tuned in to. And then I went back to work. And now I'm twisting dials, desperately trying to find that station again.

I'm in the car, coming back from seeing Shaun of the Dead, and everything is dark and wet outside, and I'm thinking about how I haven't checked my email in five hours. And I think about how pathetic that is, since nobody EVER sends me any email. And now here I am, with my mostly empty inbox, and I feel so fucking let down.

I'm...
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Went skating again tonight. Fell. I jumped a bunch of stuff and then tried to jump a Dunkin Donuts coffee cup, while turning, and slipped the landing. Slow fall. But I have some road rash, elbow and knee. Which is alright- I wanted some new bruises.

I am upset about my present and future living conditions. In an otherwise perfect life there is this ......
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