sugarpill

Now playing: Black Rebel Motorcycle Club "Suddenly"

Illusions within illusions. Smoke and mirrors. Masks to hide behind. Talk.

I feel like I've spent a very long time building an very elaborate illusion, and if anyone were to put my work to the test it would hardly stand up.

"Sticking feathers up your butt does not make you a chicken." -Tyler, Fight Club.

Friday: up at 8am. Made it up to Saratoga on time, and I thought the interview went well. I really liked the place and was hoping I'd get to work there. Came home, got changed, went up to Oakwood Cemetery to take more photos. Sweat running down my face and dripping off my chin. See pics. Went out to the Fuze Box, which was...
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I have spent the week drawing. Mostly. I've been working on faces. Trying to get what I draw to actually look like the person I'm drawing. And I've been getting much better at it. I don't know why it's so hard. I think there's so much personality in the face, that if you make any subtle changes, too many mistakes drawing the face, it ceases...
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Things come full circle.

The woman got all kinds of horny, and Friday we had some more sex. Saturday was fucking incredible. Sex, I got to stand in the rain and thunder and lightning and I haven't done that in far too long, and then company, who stayed for dinner and a really fun game of asshole. After they left I got a strip show,...
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I put some new stuff in my pics/drawings folder. I finished VALIS on Monday. I'm halfway through Poppy Z Brite's Liquor, which makes me smile while I read it. I got laid ONCE, and while I shouldn't feel cheated I do anyway.

But it's okay now, because I've got a new set from Kasara to watch over and over again. I've got pictures to burn...
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Dull weekend. Everything about this past weekend should've been really great. But it was really dull.

So, enough with this bullshit. It's time to kick my ass and get in gear. Have to start drawing again. Have to finish reading VALIS. Have to get laid. A lot. Have to stop hoping and waiting for something to happen. Have to start making things happen. Have to...
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I need to come out of my shell.

Apnea's Salon is stunning. Puts all those new SGs to shame.

I need a new profile pic. But probably not today.

I started reading Philip K Dick's VALIS, which I bought at a book sale for fifty cents. The book is from 1981, it's old and worn, and the print is tiny and blotchy. It's old skool cool. I've read the first two chapters and it's great. Fucking great.

"... our real life and purpose are...
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