All of the energy to write has gone right out of me.
Today it rained. Hard. A lot. I was driving home in all this rain, hardly felt like I was moving because you can't see anything except tail lights in gray. It pisses me off when people don't turn on their headlights in weather like that. They are invisible in the mist. I like it when it rains hard. I like how it sounds. I like watching the drops of water splash down, like bullets to the pavement. I like the way everything just floods, and tiny rivers flow about, washing out roads and driveways. I really wanted to run around naked in it. But not here.
I listened to Joy Division all day today. I put my iPod on shuffle and played 58 of 81 songs in the Heart + Soul boxed set. Lyrics kept catching my attention. "Turn on your tv/ Turn down your pulse/ Turn away from it all/ It's all getting too much" Lyrics about children crying. About wars and bombs. Lyrics about going separate ways. About danger and horrors on display. I really felt like Joy Division was THE bad to listen to today. As if somehow it perfectly framed the world today.
Today I felt gray and olive. I felt urban decay and post-industrial.
I miss being able to draw SGs every day.
Today it rained. Hard. A lot. I was driving home in all this rain, hardly felt like I was moving because you can't see anything except tail lights in gray. It pisses me off when people don't turn on their headlights in weather like that. They are invisible in the mist. I like it when it rains hard. I like how it sounds. I like watching the drops of water splash down, like bullets to the pavement. I like the way everything just floods, and tiny rivers flow about, washing out roads and driveways. I really wanted to run around naked in it. But not here.
I listened to Joy Division all day today. I put my iPod on shuffle and played 58 of 81 songs in the Heart + Soul boxed set. Lyrics kept catching my attention. "Turn on your tv/ Turn down your pulse/ Turn away from it all/ It's all getting too much" Lyrics about children crying. About wars and bombs. Lyrics about going separate ways. About danger and horrors on display. I really felt like Joy Division was THE bad to listen to today. As if somehow it perfectly framed the world today.
Today I felt gray and olive. I felt urban decay and post-industrial.
I miss being able to draw SGs every day.