sugarpill

Sigh.
Sometimes, it comes in, and fills up all the empty space, and solidifies. It hardens like cement, like concrete. And then everything sucks and I can't get out.
Happy is when I look back through my calligraphy notebook and see all the progress I've made in the last four days.
Sad is when there's nobody to talk to except Captain Morgan.

Things I Have Right Now.
Headache.
Tickets for APerfectCircle.
Homepage.
Needs.

I put two photos from my trip in my pics section. If you feel really motivated, I've started putting drawings and stuff up on my webpage. There's even a comment widget.

I went to a used bookstore today. It's something I want to start doing on a semi-regular basis. You can find a lot of good stuff there. I didn't find anything I wanted...
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I am back from Cleveland, Chicago, Columbus. I could write up a big entry and tell you all about it, but I don't feel like it.

Kasara has a man now. I wonder if that means I have to take her out of my "crush" list.

I have a week of sg sets to catch up on. It will have to wait, though.

Pictures to...
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Went to see "The Dreamers" and really liked it. I mean, probably the best movie I've seen in months. I liked how mirrors were used- how the shot would be out of focus or something, but the important part was seen clearly in a mirror. That was great.

I realize that I'm just too angry with her to be sexually attracted to her anymore. And...
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I wish I wasn't such a coward. I wish I wasn't so passive. I can sit here forever and be too scared to say or do anything. I'd like to say that I am somehow emotionally, psychologically damaged. That I have been trained to be timid and weak. But maybe I'm just trying to offload the blame. At the same time, I am not doing...
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It's three thirty in the morning. I'm a little drunk, a lotta worn out, and hella pissy. This? This is fucking bullshit. I'm just screaming it over and over in the car on the drive home. I want to know why I am going out to the club alone, and why I sit there all night, alone. I want to know why I consider myself...
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I'm just making this stuff up. None of it is important, and none of it is exciting. It's dull, and depressing, and I'm slipping away. I need to be drawing more, and writing more. It's just so hard to do anything in this vacuum. I'm going to stop posting, unless I have something to say.

Been a good couple of days. Last night I went out and saw "Bubba Ho-Tep" by myself. I still feel like a loser going to movies alone, but it's better than sitting at home suffering through the Silent Treatment. Pretty good movie. Certainly not a Hollywood kind of horror movie, but I laughed my ass off.

This morning I got up before 8am for the...
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It's Sunday Night and that means it's time for How Did You Piss Away YOUR Weekend? (cue catchy muzak)

I've been meaning to work on some more SG Desktops. But really, I've been totally turned off by the amount of utter CRAP that's being submitted lately. It just makes me want to punch somebody. Or vomit.

And then there's this SG Magazine. So SG is...
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So, I've been without a job for months now. I guess it's about 5 months. As my bank account approaches 0, I've been trimming things out of my life to cut costs. I haven't bought any new music in months. I haven't been to the comic shop in weeks. I guess the last frivolous thing that I bought was a pair of pants at Express...
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