sugarandwater

These past couple months have been crazy. I found that I am stronger than I ever knew (muscles gurr). I found myself more than anything. I want to live life like a crazy woman. I want to see the world and save what I can. The passions in my life and my convictions are burning brighter than I ever felt before. I want to be more involved in things that drive me. Veganism, Animal rights, equal rights...everything. These past 4 years I see how stagnant I was. Now I am faced with a huge fork in the road and I am clueless and alone. I have to move from where I am...but where to I have no idea. So many options because I literally am in charge of my life...I love my work here in NYC...and I love my friends more...they are like blood to me. If I moved away from Christine I feel like I would lose my heart, but something inside misses climbing trees, digging my feet into the dirt, gardening, running with my dogs. I dont know if its me reverting to my childhood...but I am seriously a hippy.I love the smell of sweat, wild crazy hair, not having to shave if I dont want to. I am torn. I need a huge shove. Cause I feel like I am tippy toeing around this elephant in the room. Not knowing what to do..I have 3 months before I have to leave and less time to choose where I shall be. I have two weeks vacation still this year. I was going to save it for when I move, but perhaps I might use it to get away for a while...any suggestions?