suburbanslave

I have come to the conclusion that commitments scare the hell out of me!! A boy just moved half way across the country to be with me and now Im backing out of it. Monday would be my 2 yr anniversay with Tyler (littledeadkid). And technically we werent even together for that long. We split up, but were still living together and having sex and all that fun stuff, so we didnt have the title on us, we were jsut there when we wanted something. And that worked really well for me, cause I could date ppl if i wanted to and I didnt have to worry about anything. But back to the new boy. He thinks I dont give him enough attention and affection. Im not a very affectionate person. I cant help it. Im very much like a boy when it comes to a lot of things. I get tend to get bored with someone after ive had sex with them. I dont usually want to be held after sex, I wanna role over and go to bed. I mean dont get me wrong, I can be romantic and affectionate and all that shit, but its jsut not all the time. I like to go out and have a good time. I dont want some guy hanging on me all night, getting pissed if im talking to other ppl! GRRRRR I dunno what the hell to do. What is scaring me soo much is the fact that he wants to be with me forever, he wants marriage and the whole deal. It makes me wanna run and hide in a corner - and thats not happy, thats me screaming and pulling hair out!!!!
FUCK IT - ill jsut have to wait it out and see what happens...