suburbanslave

Littledeadkid just left. I couldnt look at him with out crying. This is all too familiar for me. We were together for for 2 yrs and it was bad. The whole time was him coming and going and the whole time I just sat here waiting for him. Its actually kind of weird because 2 yrs ago today, we moved to Dallas and now hes on his way out to OR. As much as I hate him right now for all the bullshit between us, I will always love him and I really hope this time things work out for him.
Im all alone now and its going to be weird. It always take me a while to get adjusted to him being gone. I have no one here to make me angry everyday, trash my house, and "borrow" my things. No one that will bother me every night to have sex when he knows Im no longer interested in guys. No one to rub me to sleep on those nights I cant sleep. I have no one here.