suburbanslave

Today is a much better day than yesterday. See, my problem is that I stopped taking my meds. Im on paxil because about 4 yrs ago I started getting panic attacks. I had quit doing drugs and they began to go away, but a yr ago they came back and were even worse. It got so bad that I ended up having to quit one of my jobs. At which point I went to the Dr and they put my on paxil. It works really well and it also helps my temper. In case u dont know, I have a really bad temper, just ask Tyler. He had to out up with my bitchyness for two long yrs. Anyway, I ran out and didnt have money to get it refilled, so I have been off em for a week now and shit has gotten bad. Im normally not a very depressed person, but yesterday was bad. I spent half the day crying - and for what u ask - a stupid boy. Relationships are the worst thing to get upset over. Its just not worth it. If shit doesnt work out, fuck it. There is no use dwelling on it!! Blah Blah Blah.

Anywho, shits going great today. Im starting to understand my spanish teacher when she talks. I found out that this really cool kid I met last semester just transfered into my spanish class. I didnt get pulled over today. I talked to a really old friend from MI yesterday, he called out of the blue, I havent heard from him in almost a yr and he told me he might be in Memphis the same time I will be later this month!! Oh, I also talked to my best friend in denver today. Shes seven months pregnant - Im goign to try to make it out to denver for the birth, but who knows. Shes one of those great friends that I will have for the rest of my life, but over the past 4 yrs, our lives have gone in completely different directions so we dont talk much, but when we do its really nice! Ive also got a job interview tomorrow after skool. All I need now is a good fuckin....y does it always come back to that. I guess I just dont get it enough. But i want it from a girl with a strap on....mmmmm....hot chicks with strap ons *drools*