I am really sick of being busy at every single moment. I need a vacation.
I feel very lucky to be able to hear my spirit guide. I talk alot of shit sometimes and complain that she never tells me what I want to hear, only "fortune cookie bullshit" but really, she's always right. Even when it's hard to hear, and I appreciate it more that I could ever say. As of all day yesterday, she's been yapping at me about the importance of building personal relationships, friendships. I've been trying really hard to hold these grudges against people to protect myself, being very judgemental and stubborn, even when it hurts me more to stay away from everyone. I know she's right. "What do you learn or experience from being lonely and bitter?" she says. Umm, how to be lonely and bitter, I guess. "Why do you push so hard against your purpose and your strengths? Go with the flow more. You don't have to give everyone the keys to your heart, you shouldn't, but you do need to let someone borrow the key and visit once in a while." "The more love you give the more you get back. No, it's not always safe, yes it does hurt, but it makes your soul grow." How can I argue with that? I just can't. She always knows just what to say to get me to come back to sense. Even if it does take me a while to listen. This new insight of hers leaves me with quite a personal challenge though. 'sigh' Such is the journey of life.
I have this horrible zit just under my upper lip, which is odd for me since I have been using Proactiv for so long. I hate it. I look like I only got half a collagen injection treatment. Must be the stress. Fuck, I'd rather have one of those inside-the-nostril kind. At least then no one could see it.
I hope everyone is doing good, I'll try to visit you all soon, I miss you guys!
I feel very lucky to be able to hear my spirit guide. I talk alot of shit sometimes and complain that she never tells me what I want to hear, only "fortune cookie bullshit" but really, she's always right. Even when it's hard to hear, and I appreciate it more that I could ever say. As of all day yesterday, she's been yapping at me about the importance of building personal relationships, friendships. I've been trying really hard to hold these grudges against people to protect myself, being very judgemental and stubborn, even when it hurts me more to stay away from everyone. I know she's right. "What do you learn or experience from being lonely and bitter?" she says. Umm, how to be lonely and bitter, I guess. "Why do you push so hard against your purpose and your strengths? Go with the flow more. You don't have to give everyone the keys to your heart, you shouldn't, but you do need to let someone borrow the key and visit once in a while." "The more love you give the more you get back. No, it's not always safe, yes it does hurt, but it makes your soul grow." How can I argue with that? I just can't. She always knows just what to say to get me to come back to sense. Even if it does take me a while to listen. This new insight of hers leaves me with quite a personal challenge though. 'sigh' Such is the journey of life.
I have this horrible zit just under my upper lip, which is odd for me since I have been using Proactiv for so long. I hate it. I look like I only got half a collagen injection treatment. Must be the stress. Fuck, I'd rather have one of those inside-the-nostril kind. At least then no one could see it.
I hope everyone is doing good, I'll try to visit you all soon, I miss you guys!
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d_day:
yeah, it's been a while since you updated. i went on vacation. today is my last day. ihave to go back to work tomorrow. at least i've only got 3 days til the end of the week. sure sucks you've been so busy. hope you get the chance to rest up soon.
punkndrublic:
you should go do something for yourself. go take a trip with your family. or just your and your hubby