subnatural

When you spend so much of your time scrutinizing and criticizing other people, it becomes so very easy to lose all perspective of yourself. You want to spend so much time being smart, being clever, being funny, witty, and wise that it takes some truly idiotic behavior on your part to shock you back to reality. And when you are there, and you look at yourself, you realize that you have become one of those people whom you scorn and deride daily. And it's really likely others have looked at you that way too. "Real." Now there's a word for which I have no love.

My lousy social skills are a plague that seem to infect any social situation I'm in. Just touching it contaminates it, ensuring that the relationship will wither and die. Maybe quarantine is the answer. Then again, 40 days hardly seems long enough.