sublyminull

I need something new in my life. Some sort of passion. something that i can tear apart and rebuild. I have figured out that I treat relationships like this. I like to test the strength of someone. I like to test the passion of someone. and once i've found out all their mysteries i'm done. I dont know why i am like this. nor do i question it. there have only been a handful of times i've given someone my all and i get shit on in the process. I think I need another hobby. or maybe I should sleep more. I need something to live for. something to wake up and think about. I need something to solve. I'm a problem solver and a troubleshooter. This is what I do. If something isn't broke I have to find out what breaks that. This is how i hurt people. I don't mean to. and it's not intentional but this is what i always end up doing.