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i dont feel like trying anymore. im not using that stupid "whys nice bad?" thing anymore cuz apparently its just me in general. the whole package just doesnt work. people "fall in love" with me real quick and then POOF change their minds. i guess i burn out quick or something.

i HAVE however managed not to cry this time so w00t

wtfdammithelp

i stopped talking to my friends, i spent all those hours talking to you instead of working out the details of my life because i thought YOU were my future. why am i the only person in the world who wants "forever", when did "nice" become a bad quality.

no reason to post this here really tho cuz internet friends arent real friends. and...
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wtf. no one will talk to me. why is everyone too busy for me all of a sudden?

i know stressing about my problems wont fix them but i just cant help it. my moods are more up and down then i can ever remember them being. i dont wanna move or think or anything. i feel exhausted just from blinking. i need help and i dont know who if anyone CAN help me

i am very very sad today. i had a breakdown when i got home today and i dont feel like ill ever cheer up till certain things have changed...

tired. brain hurts.

learning hard

happy time harry~ "the pills make the telephones stop"

first day of college

math homework

hm...

perhaps things are going to work out after all...

but talking about things as if they are written in stone is the reason i always am so dissapointed when things change.

so for now this is all im gonna say about it

im preparation for the serenity movie im renting all the firefly dvds. someone please explain to me how a show that good gets cancelled after 12 episodes? or at all?

well now that ive had a couple days to let it sink in im startin to feel a bit more normal i guess. helps to keep my mind busy, im gonna bury myself in tv, movies, and video games till school starts