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Tuesday Apr 19, 2005

Apr 19, 2005
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ok....trying not to start crying here....

feeling quite depressed and lonely this evening i finally swallowed what little pride i had, and went to check out that eHarmony.com site. id heard so much about how advanced its matching system was i had always figured that that site would sort of be like my ace in the hole, surely it would be able to find me someone. well at least it lits you fill out the thing and see if there are any matches for you BEFORE you pay a subscription fee. i it took like 45 minutes to fill the thing out and this is the message i got:

Unfortunately, we are not able to make our profiles work for you. Our matching model could not accurately predict with whom you would be best matched. This occurs for about 20% of potential users, so 1 in 5 people simply will not benefit from our service. We hope that you understand, and we regret our inability to provide service for you at this time.

...nothing like being told theres no one on the whole planet that you are compatable with to cheer you up when youre down. i honestly have no idea what to do now. i know im not a bad person but i would like very much to just not be all by myself, even for a little while. i dont want to believe that im completely undesireable, but that website seems to think so, and honestly i dont really have any evidence to the contrary so im not sure anymore.

the way i see it, lonliness is a bodily need just like being hungry or being too cold. if your hungry for too long you keel over from starvation, if your cold for too long you get frostbite, so i wonder what happens if your lonely for too long. do you just stop caring eventually? do you just simply lose your mind altogether?

id be a good boyfriend to any girl that would have me, really i would so i dont see why it has to be like this for me. how long is the universe going to make me wait before i can be happy? ive been 18 years without even so much as getting to hold hands with a girl. isnt that long enough? great now if gotten myself crying. i guess i better stop thinking about this before i break down completely.

heres the finished version of the picture i was working on:
jonnyjonnyh:
It's ok, I had to move before I found people that get me better. It's probably better that the eharmony thing didn't work out, it could have turned into another thing to dump money into. smile
Apr 19, 2005
thelastbeliever:
Thats a really cool picture.

Without meaning to sound too much like an arse, maybe you should concentrate on something else for now. When the time is right for you to have a girl, she will come along. The harder you push yourself, the more frustrated you will get...
Apr 20, 2005

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