stuzzy

I can be happy, if I let myself. I can do things no one else can. I can move things, people. I can reach inside myself and pull things out that are wonderful and marvelous. I can pull those out of you, if you let me, and even if you don't I can make you want to. I can inspire you to something greater if I am so inclined. I can fly high in the sky without a care. I can let go of myself and see myself from another place. I can climb that hill. I can climb to the top and be peaceful and content and soak in the beauty of it all. The beauty of you and everything like a kaleidoscope of life. I am god of my own world. I am omnipotent in my own being. When you challenge your fears and push yourself outside your comfort zone wonderful things become possible and new oppportunities present themselves like blooming flowers. I am growing. At times I am in chaos inside of me yet there are periods of peace where the clouds part and I can see the truth, a higher plane. I still struggle to move forward, and move forward I do. Inch by inch.

I'm on the verge of a greater understanding, an epiphany. I keep pushing further and further. How far can I go? As far as I want I suppose. Will I slide backwards into mediocrity? Possibly. Am I just full of shit? Probably. Where is the wise old buddhist monk when I need him? This is one of the times I feel I could use some guidance because I'm not sure what comes next.

I wish I could show you, but all I have is words, and they fail to do it justice.

"With an awakened heart we can lovingly connect with and deeply appreciate what is without seeking to change it, grasp it, or to push it away."

Seomtimes I feel pushing people away because of old ways of thinking. I don't want to do that anymore. I want to draw all the people that are special to me close and keep them there. Allow me room to grow in your mind.

"The way of a Buddha is simply to stay present, and to be love."

Damn, I'm turning into a hippy.

"Fearlessly the idiot faced the crowd, smiling"

You probably think I'm crazy don't you? A part of me is saying I shouldn't share these things with you readers. Another part just doesn't care, the part that's winning. Why should I hide myself? If I am happy and content within myself nothing can harm me and suffering ceases to be.

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Happiness
More or less
It's just a change in me
Something in my liberty

But how many corners do I have to turn?
How many times do I have to learn
All the love I have is in my mind?

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Love is the flower, you gotta let it, you gotta let it grow
Yes is surrender, you gotta let it, you gotta let it go

You know that, for sure.

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I am closing the gap between the person I am and the person I want to be. You just don't know, how could you? I'm just a silly boy finding his way.