stuffed_primate

Thinking...
thinking about the things I didn't say...about the things I did... about the things I didn't do... fuck, I hate thinking too much... I think about those I loved and have lost in my life... and I look back with a lot of regret. So I must ask myself have a lead a good life and have I loved as much as I possibly could... It seems that I haven't ... I live my life with regrets and with no real way to rectify any of them...that's not good...
I want to cut myself...I've had this urge before...I've fought it...but I need to feel something right now...pain...at least I'll be feeling and thinking about something other then regret...