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Indianapolis, IN

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Saturday Dec 04, 2004

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Getting that looming feeling again, that I need to curl up in bed for a few weeks and avoid people/places/things. Time to shut down socially for a while. Starting to have that paranoid cringing feeling when people look at me, notice me. I just want to melt into the wall when I'm out and about.

Dreamt of Sarah last night, and it hurt to wake up and not have her around. Melancholy loneliness. It's been a while, and I've had other crushes/dates since her, but I still miss her a lot.

Sandy at work got a copy of the police report regarding Dave, and turns out the rumors were true. She was surprised that he (or Stephanie) wouldn't have called the police or gone to the hospital beforehand, until Heather and I reminded her that people aren't too keen on seeking help when they could get arrested in the process. :/ A drug deal gone bad. And people wonder why I've never been amused by that whole scene. I'm not straightedge, but sometimes I think I could be.

Figured out which of the pothead teenagers at work put graffiti on my car, bewildered them, and got them in trouble, all at the same time. I told Harlen about the "FUCK U" message and the group I suspected, and he did a brilliant/manic thing. In front of management, he stormed into the group and shouted "Who wrote 'FUCK U' on my car yesterday?!" One guy, Anthony, said "I thought that was someone else's car! Sorry, man!" and then got busted by management for associate harassment. Now they don't know what I drive for sure. Heh.

My new friend Tara (she of the heavy life) is moving back to Kentucky. She was tired of the backstabbing, rumors, and high-school antics that swirled around her at work, plus life in Indiana had gone completely sour otherwise. I hadn't seen her for a week or so, but she came by work Thursday night to give me a hug and say goodbye. A nice touch, and kind of sad at the same time. I doubt I'll see her again. frown

Geek moment of the week: bought a magazine full of cryptograms, the kind that don't give you starting letters. As if I need something else to tote around with my crossword puzzles...
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quenten:
Damn, that is one long journal.

Interesting though, especially if the entries are sporadic. "I got a rockem sockem robot and I'm so happy!" "I can't believe Mary went to the dance with Ted one week after she dumped me. I'm gonna go kill myself." "I got accepted to college!" "College sucks." "Jen and I are getting married!" "Jen's a bitch and no way can she have the cat."
Dec 4, 2004
jenya:
yup, i got that same feeling going on.............a sure sign that it's christmas time blackeyed
Dec 4, 2004

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