I am such a dumb ass. Every time something is going good or getting better leave it up to me to fuck it up again. I just don't know when to stop and leave well enough alone or when to say when. If you give me an inch I will take a whole foot and not even realize it until I have done it, and that is what worries me, and why I am just plain stupid. For all the common sense I do have there is this whole chunk missing in my head. I have to do something before I completely ruin my marriage, which is truly the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I keep doing crazy shit to make it harder.
I'm sure everything will work out in time though, then again what do I know? I don't know you, your wife, or the life you live. I wish I could help in some way though, because I know the feeling and it really really does completely suck. I hate seeing people upset or hurting.
PS- Your default is adorable.