WOW!! Almost two weeks with no post, I should be spanked.
So our little Monkey Butt had his two month check up and his shots on friday, he did suprisingly well. Poor thing was so tired yesterday as a side effect though. We went to the park and took him for a walk and he slept through the whole thing. Other than that I guess things are going ok, Chelle and I sat up one night talking about things and how she has been feeling towards me and life in general, and in turn how that has made me feel. It helped I am not quite as timid around her and I understand where she is coming from. It is still hard. It all boils down to the fact that we were in no way shape or form ready to have a kid. And now that he is here it is really hard to swallowthe fact that it is not about us and what we want anymore is is all about him. Chelle is having a real hard time being stuck in the house all day, not working and taking care of Logan and she is mad, not at Logan, he did not ask for any of this. Just mad at our place in life right now, not having the money to do what we want living on less than a shoestring budget, having to apply for food stamps and so forth. I have just put my mind to doing whatever I need to do for my family, hell we were poor and on welfare for a while when I was a kid, I lived in the projects for a liitle over a year when I was 5, so there is not so much an issue with to me, I have paid taxes for well over 16 years and I need the use of what I have been paying into.
I know things will work out somehow, i am just trying to figure it all out.
Logan First Trip To The Comic Shop
So our little Monkey Butt had his two month check up and his shots on friday, he did suprisingly well. Poor thing was so tired yesterday as a side effect though. We went to the park and took him for a walk and he slept through the whole thing. Other than that I guess things are going ok, Chelle and I sat up one night talking about things and how she has been feeling towards me and life in general, and in turn how that has made me feel. It helped I am not quite as timid around her and I understand where she is coming from. It is still hard. It all boils down to the fact that we were in no way shape or form ready to have a kid. And now that he is here it is really hard to swallowthe fact that it is not about us and what we want anymore is is all about him. Chelle is having a real hard time being stuck in the house all day, not working and taking care of Logan and she is mad, not at Logan, he did not ask for any of this. Just mad at our place in life right now, not having the money to do what we want living on less than a shoestring budget, having to apply for food stamps and so forth. I have just put my mind to doing whatever I need to do for my family, hell we were poor and on welfare for a while when I was a kid, I lived in the projects for a liitle over a year when I was 5, so there is not so much an issue with to me, I have paid taxes for well over 16 years and I need the use of what I have been paying into.
I know things will work out somehow, i am just trying to figure it all out.
Logan First Trip To The Comic Shop
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Sooo I will be relying on the system to help me. I'm in the process of appling for state services too.
I hope that you guys can make out to the Anniversary party even if its for a little while.....
Talk to you soon!!