stryka

Can't sleep. Very annoying, have to be up sooner than i'd like. It's funny though, usually when i can't sleep, something's bugging me. Not tonight.

I have all these thoughts in my head. I really felt like something hit me while I was sitting, overlooking that lake. One of those moments of clarity you get. Things just make more sense.

But since then, I've had this buzz. Life has so many possiblities. I feel like 4 years ago, my life was seriously fucked up. All messy and yuck. I've spent the past 4 years trying to clean my life up. Clean myself up, put my head together.

And ya know what????? Life rocks. I think I've finally come to the point, where I've put enough of the old b/s in order, i almost feel like i have a clean slate again. Except, it's a clean slate w/ a really good foundation. (yes I'm mixing analogies)

Life is good. And it's only going to keep getting better. And it feels even better to know, while I've had some rocking awsome chearleaders. I've gotten where I've gotten myself.

There was a time a few years ago they picked me back up. Don't know what I would have done w/out them then. But a little over a year ago, the training wheels came off. They sat back and smiled. And the other day it hit me w/ clarity that I didn't think I'd ever be in this much control of my life.


OK, that was long and cheezy and a realllllllllllllllllly good indication I should have been asleep hours ago.