I need sleep. 7 nights in a row of waking up at 2am followed by a night without any sleep at all makes me very fragile and short tempered. If I knew what was waking me every night I'd be doing everything possible to avoid it, but as it is, I have NO idea what it is. The first night was asthma, but after that who knows? Can't afford the doctor this week, so really hope it doesn't continue.
I need cuddles. I have offers of sex coming in, but that's not what I want. OK, it's been far too long and I'm gagging for it, but I'm over just sex for the sake of sex. I want cuddles. I want spooning. I want someone to curl up with on the couch and watch movies. I want someone to laugh with, to be at once completely silly and entirely serious. The thing is, I know now's not a good time for me to be in a relationship. I'm about to embark on a very changefull period in my life, where I need to have a clear head and deal with the issues in my life. It'll be difficult I know, but with the support of my friends an family, I know I'll get through.
I also need to stop myself falling completely for a certain someone too far away to cuddle. If I had the money and wasn't about to embark on this life-changing "journey"', I'd be on the next flight, but as it is, I can't make any promises and it's not far on either of us for me to ask him to wait for 6mths with barely any contact. In saying this, I miss you and cant wait to talk to you again, and I'll explain things better when we do talk.
I need to get my arse into gear and start packing. It's Monday night and I have until Saturday morning to get everything down to 23kg to take with me back home to Auckland. Everything else will be given away or kept here in storage. So far all I've done is go through a few of my clothes to give to my sister who, at almost 13, is almost the same size as I was up until 4yrs ago. Tis good to see all my awesome clothes going to good use, and saves mum money as well. Normally I'd leave it til Friday night except I have no power in my shed, and seriously doubt I could pack/sort by candlelight.
I need cuddles. I have offers of sex coming in, but that's not what I want. OK, it's been far too long and I'm gagging for it, but I'm over just sex for the sake of sex. I want cuddles. I want spooning. I want someone to curl up with on the couch and watch movies. I want someone to laugh with, to be at once completely silly and entirely serious. The thing is, I know now's not a good time for me to be in a relationship. I'm about to embark on a very changefull period in my life, where I need to have a clear head and deal with the issues in my life. It'll be difficult I know, but with the support of my friends an family, I know I'll get through.
I also need to stop myself falling completely for a certain someone too far away to cuddle. If I had the money and wasn't about to embark on this life-changing "journey"', I'd be on the next flight, but as it is, I can't make any promises and it's not far on either of us for me to ask him to wait for 6mths with barely any contact. In saying this, I miss you and cant wait to talk to you again, and I'll explain things better when we do talk.
I need to get my arse into gear and start packing. It's Monday night and I have until Saturday morning to get everything down to 23kg to take with me back home to Auckland. Everything else will be given away or kept here in storage. So far all I've done is go through a few of my clothes to give to my sister who, at almost 13, is almost the same size as I was up until 4yrs ago. Tis good to see all my awesome clothes going to good use, and saves mum money as well. Normally I'd leave it til Friday night except I have no power in my shed, and seriously doubt I could pack/sort by candlelight.
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and good luck!
AND thanx!