streetmuse

Sooo I should be on my way to work... but, I felt like writing a bit first... because, I'm just not all that motivated to go to work at the moment... in fact, it seems lately I'm just not motivated to do anything.... when I try to do things, and make plans, it doesnt work... when I have plans, they end up not happening.... so I usually come home after work, and just hang out in the house.

Thats not bad sometimes... but, I get pretty depressed doing it too often. I'm quite manic lately, when I'm in a good mood, its incredibly good, but it can crash down to the lowest low, at the drop of a hat... I need more of a social life.. I need more new friends.. I need friends that actually WANT to go out, and LIKE to go out and have a good time, friends that will call me, and ask if I wanna do something, without me hunting them down to make plans... I swear, if I didnt have the internet.. I wouldn't hear from practically any of them (there are exceptions, you know who you are).

Anyways... I'm just in one of my down moods this morning, didnt sleep very well, and just needed to vent... sorry to make you all listen to me whining... pretty sad when typing on a computer screen is, for the most part... the only way to get things off my chest... and sometimes my only shoulder to cry on... I think there needs to be some major changes in my life....