My lifes been a friggin roller coaster lately... so many ups and downs, its starting to make me head spin.. I think I'm gonna throw up....
today was no different...
I got to work, find out, my help called out sick,which he NEVER does, and Im a little afraid he's not comin back... so I had a TON of shit to do, by myself.. including cleaning 20 stalls... which my back really isnt happy about... I had to cancel my lessons today, because that also meant I wouldnt have time to do them.. which means $55 I lose out on.. I know that doesnt seem like a lot... but... lessons are my livelihood (sp?) thats how I make my money... my salary isnt all that much.... which leads me to the next highlight of my day....
WE GOT THE APARTMENT!!!!!!!!!!
soooo... moneys going to be tight for a while, comin up with 1st months rent and security.. so I really coulda used that $55.. but the news about the apartment put me in a wonderful mood... which I needed at the end of the day... I danced around the barn, all happy...
but..such is my life... I know the good mood couldnt last... I called my dad to tell him the news, and he was cool at first. then the conversation changed, and ultimately ended up with him screaming at me for half an hour, and me bawling my eyes out... he's sooo good at making me feel so fucking worthless... he has this way of making me doubt everything about myself, and anything ive ever believed in... (which is one of the reasons i havent posted a psw set yet)...thing is... sometimes my dad is so awesome, and so supportive, and other times, his words just cut through me like a knife, and make me want to crawl under a rock and die... and i dont know what to do about it.... blah...
an amazingly special thanks to EatMyBabies, for everything... you help me soo much... and i'm more greatful than you'd ever know...
anyways... besides the sad stuff... I GOT THE APARTMENT! We can move in on monday... who's helping???
today was no different...
I got to work, find out, my help called out sick,which he NEVER does, and Im a little afraid he's not comin back... so I had a TON of shit to do, by myself.. including cleaning 20 stalls... which my back really isnt happy about... I had to cancel my lessons today, because that also meant I wouldnt have time to do them.. which means $55 I lose out on.. I know that doesnt seem like a lot... but... lessons are my livelihood (sp?) thats how I make my money... my salary isnt all that much.... which leads me to the next highlight of my day....
WE GOT THE APARTMENT!!!!!!!!!!
soooo... moneys going to be tight for a while, comin up with 1st months rent and security.. so I really coulda used that $55.. but the news about the apartment put me in a wonderful mood... which I needed at the end of the day... I danced around the barn, all happy...
but..such is my life... I know the good mood couldnt last... I called my dad to tell him the news, and he was cool at first. then the conversation changed, and ultimately ended up with him screaming at me for half an hour, and me bawling my eyes out... he's sooo good at making me feel so fucking worthless... he has this way of making me doubt everything about myself, and anything ive ever believed in... (which is one of the reasons i havent posted a psw set yet)...thing is... sometimes my dad is so awesome, and so supportive, and other times, his words just cut through me like a knife, and make me want to crawl under a rock and die... and i dont know what to do about it.... blah...
an amazingly special thanks to EatMyBabies, for everything... you help me soo much... and i'm more greatful than you'd ever know...
anyways... besides the sad stuff... I GOT THE APARTMENT! We can move in on monday... who's helping???
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cutters:
Well, we get free dinner and lunch which will make it a lot less boring
iggy_koopa:
i just saw your favorite animated gif lol you rock, now you just need to post some of those pics you keep teasing about