So I guess my account is still active.... who knows til when....
I'm not around much... life is craziness.... its weird... no job.... I was always working a thousand hours a week... and no money... blah... it sucks... my mental health is kinda deteriorating... my boyfriend is the only thing keeping me from completely going off the deep end I think....
Theres so much to put back together, and try and get back on track, since quitting my job.... its overwhelming.... my anxiety is out of control.... I'm constantly sick... I never sleep.... blah... I'm going to therapy... and have been put on meds... but.... they're not helping... and I dont think I can afford them much longer anyways.... I need xanax or klonopins... but you cant just ask for that shit... or ya get red flagged... I dont even want them to get fucked up... I know they'll help... doctors just dont like handing that stuff out... the effexor makes me sick to my stomach... the trazadone gives me horrible headaches... and doesnt make me sleep.... in fact makes me feel so terrible... I almost went to the ER one night, my headache had me in tears...
BLAH!!!! school starts next week, going to Blaine for make up and esthetics... I'm excited... but nervous... and the anxiety doesnt help that either... I worry that its going to hold me back... and keep me from doing as well as I can...its constant worry... it never stops... no matter what its about... work... school.. money... my horses... my boyfriend...
Sooo yea... no super good news to report here... I'm broke, stressed out, and a complete head case.... thats all folks.....
Anyone got a few extra bucks, or some anxiety meds layin around... I'm not too proud to beg...
oh... and here's a semi recent pic of me...mmhmm...
I'm not around much... life is craziness.... its weird... no job.... I was always working a thousand hours a week... and no money... blah... it sucks... my mental health is kinda deteriorating... my boyfriend is the only thing keeping me from completely going off the deep end I think....
Theres so much to put back together, and try and get back on track, since quitting my job.... its overwhelming.... my anxiety is out of control.... I'm constantly sick... I never sleep.... blah... I'm going to therapy... and have been put on meds... but.... they're not helping... and I dont think I can afford them much longer anyways.... I need xanax or klonopins... but you cant just ask for that shit... or ya get red flagged... I dont even want them to get fucked up... I know they'll help... doctors just dont like handing that stuff out... the effexor makes me sick to my stomach... the trazadone gives me horrible headaches... and doesnt make me sleep.... in fact makes me feel so terrible... I almost went to the ER one night, my headache had me in tears...
BLAH!!!! school starts next week, going to Blaine for make up and esthetics... I'm excited... but nervous... and the anxiety doesnt help that either... I worry that its going to hold me back... and keep me from doing as well as I can...its constant worry... it never stops... no matter what its about... work... school.. money... my horses... my boyfriend...
Sooo yea... no super good news to report here... I'm broke, stressed out, and a complete head case.... thats all folks.....
Anyone got a few extra bucks, or some anxiety meds layin around... I'm not too proud to beg...
oh... and here's a semi recent pic of me...mmhmm...
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zooom zoom zoom zoom.
Go Yanks!
i got anxiety meds like a mutha fucka.
*gives you meds.
Im only rooting for the Sox to win this series so they can get crushed by the Yanks in the ALCS.