I'm am so horribly lonely right now. My friends, Pete & Jen have stopped coming over because of a brief and minor moment of confrontation she & I had about a rude remark she made. I've been trying to get in touch with some old friends who I haven't talked to in a couple of years. I can't get a hold of one of them, and the operator didn't even have the last name of the other listed in my old town. For some reason I was thinking that I had more friends. I had the whole weekend off for the first time in months but I had nobody to invite over. How crippling my passivity has been.
On top of this, I am officially estranged from my parents, as it has been over a year since I've talked to them and now they're homeless somewhere. There are two questions that worry me now: Why had this apathy not affected me until now and will I be able to act on this urgent need to develop a fulfilling and substantial life?
On top of this, I am officially estranged from my parents, as it has been over a year since I've talked to them and now they're homeless somewhere. There are two questions that worry me now: Why had this apathy not affected me until now and will I be able to act on this urgent need to develop a fulfilling and substantial life?
apathy is the silent killer... it never bothers you, really, until it's too late to dig yourself out.
be careful with yourself, and best wishes.
xoxo hyena