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so...i went down to tennessee for 700$ to se the love of my life, right...since shes called me ONCE ...like, youd think shed show a little more affection. even when i was down there she still, like she said before ...acted like she wasnt sexually attracted to me...dont get me wrong she loves me ...but it seems to be more like a best friend than a lover...even when we did have sex it felt more like her obligation and was quick and emotionless. thats not what i want and i dont think i deserve that...

do you ever find it weird that its so much easier to find someone to beat you up and fuck you then to find someone who will patiently make love to you...i think i just grew out of S&M

i dont want to fuck, i dont want sex...i just want to feel the closeness of someone i love and i dont