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I need to find a way to be in Memphis. I know my last 3 blogs have been about this, but it's seriously ruling my life. I woke up pretty late today, as always, and when I called my boyfriend to see what he was up to, he was already out with his friends for the day. Not just a few hours but the ENTIRE day. He said he'd call me when he got home.. which will be at least 1am. I'm glad that he gets to get out and have fun with his friends because lord knows he needs it, but I sit at home and do nothing. I have no friends here in Austin, and I pretty much despise my family so I don't leave my room much. I just want to get away. I want to be in Memphis with Tommy and his friends.. wait.. our friends? With his financial issues and not being able to move out of his house any time in the foreseeable future, and my inability to move up there without having roommates.. I just don't know what I'm going to do. I can't make it through the summer like this.

He went bike riding with everyone this morning.
I don't know how to ride a bike, and I'm so super jealous.
I want good friends like that.

This transition into adulthood or whatever this is, is a lot fucking harder than I expected.. I didn't realize I was going to lose all my good friends.

Moral of the story is.. I need a place to live in Memphis in early June so that I can have friends and an actual life and go on actual dates with my boyfriend and see him more than for 4 days once every 2 months.

Ideas anyone?

Desperately yours,
Stassney <3