I was sad the other day and decided to get some new ink.
The Rose of Venus! It's the pattern that Venus' orbit makes around Earth. Venus was one of the first planets to be noticed by the ancients. It's one of the 7 ancient planets, and the Goddess Venus was the Goddess of love, beauty, and sexuality. I've wanted this piece for awhile, and have been fascinated by this image and pattern for a long time. It looks like a sand dollar....a sea star...And the number 5 is so incredible. Fudgesicles, there are SO many reasons I got this tattoo. I'm in love with it! It was done by Joey at Adrenaline in Vancouver. She's great!
Reasons for being sad: I feel like my doctors are telling me "Tough luck, this is life" instead of helping me. You don't tell someone with chronic pain "Tough it up Princess". I need braces, adjustments, and a game plan, but I guess I'm going to the wrong people or something. I've made a few promising appointments for the coming weeks, but my PT basically told me not to keep my hopes up on ever getting help. I know I'm strong, but I have moments where I really just need help. It's frustrating when the people you thought you could trust and confide in turn out to not understand like you thought they did. But I have so many amazing people by my side. I have you guys, and I have fellow EDS sufferers within the SG community that have helped to really keep me positive in the face of others telling me to just give up. <3
In other news, I'm making my summer line right now! I'm stoked. I picked up some fabric and elastic to make some pretty white and pink garters! Going to be adding some really neat features. Can't wait!
My set "Feather in the Wind" shot by @Ituit now comes out on March 10th instead of the 3rd!
Also, she has another set that came out on Valentine's Day that you MUST check out! She's a freaking babe. I miss her <3
BUTTTTTTT! Hahahahaha. I've been doing a massive amount of butt exercises lately, and I'm feeling SO good about my booty! I've gained like an inch around, and I can feel my hips/glutes getting so much stronger. Remember how I was saying not to exercise to be thin? Well here are the added benefits to having a strong "base"- My hips don't slip around as much, which decreases the amount of pain I experience as well as the amount of subluxations and dislocations. For me, this is huge. For the average person, this may not be as important right now. But when you're old with strong hips, you'll be super happy you developed those muscles when you were younger!! :)
I'm still selling instax! And I'm thinking of doing mini set albums for people to purchase. A series of 5 photos in a small hand made album. Would you guys be interested in that? They'd be around $50 each, maybe a bit more to cover the cost of the prints/book/shipping and handling but I thought it was a neat idea.
I finally decided on a design for my memorial tattoo, so all this money is going towards that!
April is coming up fast, and I'm feeling this weird emotional pressure on my heart. I'm going to write a blog when I'm feeling more ready about Alex. For those who don't know or just started following me, Alex was my BFF. He was in a car accident on April 18th 2012, and was in a coma in the hospital until 4pm April 19th 2012. When we pulled the plug, I lost my other half, and I'm just now...Two years later...Feeling ready to start the grieving process. I've ignored it, pushed passed it, refused to sink into sadness. But it's taken a huge tole on me...I need to find a way through it instead of around it. I miss him so much...SO much...
Blah...Anyway.
The tattoo will be a pot plant (Not leaf, but the actual plant, which is quite beautiful!) with budding flowers, pink roses (My birth flower), and a few feathers. I don't want any black outline, so it's going to be as realistic and dimensional as possible. I'm doing it on my thigh, and appreciate every single cent that I can raise for this piece. It means a lot to me, and I feel like having a visual piece for him will really help me in this process.
If you're interested in donating, I'm offering an instax print for anyone who donates over $10 to my fund. Instax are basically polaroids films, and I have over 30 to sell with more on the way!
MY FUND FOR MY MEMORIAL TATTOO
Thank you so much to everyone who has helped me. I promise I will pay it back in some way, in any way that I can. One single person was kind enough to donate just over $300 to my fund and I honestly just cried. He told me to pay it forward when I can, and I will.
I love you guys <3
