stormworm

another sunny day with no where to go. roomates sleeping as they stayed up all night. i went to bed early for the first time in a long time (12pm) and woke up this morning a little sicker than usual.

the empty room im sitting in just reminds me of all the other holes in my life. i can't play muisc becuase i don't want to wake them up. theres construction going on outside of my house, its sounds like mad max. same day the earth will open up and the sky can wash us all away. the jaws of our planet, when released (not unlike a horses jaw) have nothing but its own flesh and small reminders to the ants that there used to be something here. there always is something there though. to many almosts. i feel bad for the aye aye. they will almost certainly be extinct soon and for no other reason than they were not meant to adapt to this world. they are who they are and cannot do anything about it. they don't follow the "trend of life" or the waves in which our society standardi-zes its normality. when i was young i just never understood it. before the mohawks and piercings and spikes i was just a little with no ambition other than to wake up the next day. of course thats changed now and was forgotten about soon after those initial burts of dreams. i don't think i will be able to keep myself alive for long. to many factors working against me. or the other way around- i just can't figure out which equation of emotion i can use in order to...

having a pretty shitty morning so far. maybe ill get some lemonade today and fire my cap gun. i still have a carton of bubble gum that i got for k on the table in the living room. and flowers in my room that she gave me.

i have to move thats stuff.
xoxo