I haven't updateed int a while with anythign interesting. So here goes. School is almost over and can't wait for a break fomr classes and looking at all the other "kids" and haveing teachers who can't teach. I'm still not feelign that well mentaly and physicaly and I recently went to the doc for the first time ever. This was the first time anyonetook my blood and ran test and did a full body check up. I was told I need allergy testing and to get my gaulblader ultrasounded and I got new pills and I also recived some numbers for counselers and if that doesn't make me feel better I might have to go on meds.
All of this is pretty scary for me but it will be good to know more about my body and what pains I should just live witha nd which ones I shoudl have to live with.
My mind is still super crazya nd I've talked to the parents and I'm going to start goign to counceling and and hopefully they can find me one that inssurence will help pay for, cause it will only make me feel worse to know I'm costing them so much money.
I had my first counceling experience what I was 15 and my mom made me go cause I just wanted to spend all day in my room and not talk to her and I hates everyeon at school and I wasn't like my bros. I'm about 20 mins I explained to that counseler that this wasn't really about me it was about her and the cvouceler agreeed and focused on my mom. But since then life has just gotten crazier and I've reached my breaking point. Everyday I wake up and all day long all I can think about is tryign not to cry throw up or punch someone in the face, all at the same time.
Recently I had a couceling session with a Counceling major at my school for extra credit and for a grade from him and it was video taped and it lasted about an hour in this hour I many talked about my parents and some stuff that has been happening and I look up and my couceler guy is tearing up. *akward*
So yea life has really been hard and stressful and very difficult. It also itsn't helping that everyeon is dropping out of school who I came here to school to be with it. It makes me feel more alone.
I hope everyoen's life is goign better then mine and you can see the beauty in today and in yourself.
All of this is pretty scary for me but it will be good to know more about my body and what pains I should just live witha nd which ones I shoudl have to live with.
My mind is still super crazya nd I've talked to the parents and I'm going to start goign to counceling and and hopefully they can find me one that inssurence will help pay for, cause it will only make me feel worse to know I'm costing them so much money.
I had my first counceling experience what I was 15 and my mom made me go cause I just wanted to spend all day in my room and not talk to her and I hates everyeon at school and I wasn't like my bros. I'm about 20 mins I explained to that counseler that this wasn't really about me it was about her and the cvouceler agreeed and focused on my mom. But since then life has just gotten crazier and I've reached my breaking point. Everyday I wake up and all day long all I can think about is tryign not to cry throw up or punch someone in the face, all at the same time.
Recently I had a couceling session with a Counceling major at my school for extra credit and for a grade from him and it was video taped and it lasted about an hour in this hour I many talked about my parents and some stuff that has been happening and I look up and my couceler guy is tearing up. *akward*
So yea life has really been hard and stressful and very difficult. It also itsn't helping that everyeon is dropping out of school who I came here to school to be with it. It makes me feel more alone.
I hope everyoen's life is goign better then mine and you can see the beauty in today and in yourself.
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puddincat:
how are you hun? 
docalcoholiday:
I'm hoping things start getting better after all of that. Sometimes shit just piles up, but afterwards you can take a breather and end up better for it. I hope your feeling better soon.
