Wednesday Sep 08, 2004

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Wow today is like a really strange day. I saw Garden state last night, and i think it fucked with my head. So many things in it really hit home.

But i so connected with the idea of feeling again. It seems like i have been being numbed and fighting feelings for so long i sometimes dont know what to do. I realised some time in the last 12 hours that my passion for things had been being eroded away. Be it by meds my parents put me on as a teen, or holding back so much in my life that i wanted and needed that everything started to look monochromatic and blurred, but never with dominant shades of white of black even , just muted greys.

Lately I have started to see the colors again, and now i feel this need to again enjoy the freedon i have. I need it to rain and storm heavily i think. need to go out in the weather and feel connected.

So Here is a question for you dear beautiful people who i am coming to so appreciate. Is it better to be detached and "healthy" or be connected and fucked up. just curious, I think i have made up my mind, but it always helps to hear others opinions.
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minibeanie:
Detached and Healthy.....that kinda sux.....If I had to give up my health knowing that I would be happier, I just might do it....but I guess that will come around and bite you in the ass too.....health will fade and you go bye bye.....so what fun is that.......damn....now my head hurts....I thought to hard wink

kiss
lauren:
It's acrylic and its about large/medium format canvas (I'm not sure about the specific measurements). I did not paint it. It was given to me for my birthday this year. My Mr. Grey is the talented one who created her for me =)

[Edited on Sep 09, 2004 11:32PM]

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