stinkerbell

There are moments in your life you need to really look in the mirror and look at yourself. Your wholeself. I have been doing that a lot lately. I have made some major changes in my life. Though I know they are all for the better, there is pain with change, and that is what I am dealing with.

I cut off most of my blonde locks and now have light brown hair. My hair was so fried it needed the change. Also since September and October seem to be the start of new paths on the road of life, I have been really taking long hard looks in the mirror. I am a lot stronger that I thought.

I have to say - I find it quite interesting, this week I have been called a cold hearted bitch and the most loving person someone has ever met. I have been told I am too open and I have been told that I am too distant. I have been compared to the wicked witch and the good witch. I have been told I am brutally honest and have been accused of being a fucking liar. - Hmm... sounds like there are two of me... or maybe just maybe I am human.

One of the major things I am going to do is that I am not going to say what people want me to say. If you dont like me because of that than so be it. You make choices and so do I.

You may have noticed I took all my friends down except for Targes - why... well, most know why. It happen and to quote the IM I got - I'M SO DONE.

I am happy - living one moment at a time