stinkerbell

First of all, I got the best ever birthday gifts and letter from my Butterfly and I thank her VERY MUCH!! Love you.

here are some other random thoughts:

So today at work, I was listening to my IPOD and my new favorite thing Podcast. Anyway, this girl was talking about how someone lifted her pictures from another site and made a my space account using the name "Becky". For a moment there, I felt really sorry for the victim. Then I started to feel really sorry for "Becky" how horrible your life must be that you have to steal from another.

I have gone 48 hours without breaking down and digging into the past. You see I am an emotional pack rat and I have at times let those moments when I am really down to let the past just over take me. Well, on Friday evening I told my Irish that I was not going to mention anyone or anything from my past and was going to see how long I could do it. It has been 48 hours and if I had not mention the funky dream I had about my mother being arrested I would still be on my streek.

Please dont get me wrong, I dont have all horrible memories it just sometimes when I am sad, the negative ones seem so huge to me and I forget the positive ones.

For example the other day, I was thinking about the first time I went on a rollercoaster. I was 13 and for the most part of my life had been so scared of them I cried if I had to even get near the line. Then while visiting my cousins, we went to 6 Flags over the mid west and they took me on a rollercoaster called the Screaming Eagle.

http://www.coasterphotos.com/SFStL/screamin.htm

Please note the first drop is 91 feet straight down... I loved it and I have not been afraid of rollercoasters since. Though as I get older I am not to hip on the toss you all around upside down coasters.

Well..... there is nothing more to say right now... I thank those of you who stop by and read my blog. Please post comments. I am very open minded and I have a very open heart.