stinkerbell

I am sorry that I have been so bad about updating as of late. I can only blame depression. I have been depressed over losing my job. I should be happy less than a week after being let go, I have been on two interviews but I just got sad.

So, I went to my therapist yesterday and she said I should not beat myself up and that a lot of people are out of work. Ok, that made me feel a little better.

Here is the thing, I went to the doctor a couple of weeks ago. They took a lot of blood which has now lead me to have MORE blood work and three more visits with "specialist". I HATE going to the doctor. Why can't I be normal for once... lol

They think I have Lupus. I think I have had it for a long time but could not get a doctor to even consider testing for it. Thank you HMO's. That I can deal with, as I know a few people with it who have amazing active lives. However, the thing that has been freaking me out is they think I may have Skin Cancer. Ok, I lived in California in the 80's where we worship the sun. I honestly used to beleive that I should get a good burn before I could tan. Now, I am paying for it. Watch it will be nothing and I will feel like an idiot. The doctor just freaked me out about the whole thing.

F and I went to see some Rollergirls on Saturday. Saw F&C there. Had a great time. We were late though, our standard I feel and as a result had to stand through most of the game. Half time they had Karoke and this was just so sad. Only one guy was good. This woman, god love her for trying, killed Melissa Etheridge - Am I the only one. I think she was trying and I cant blame her. At least she was brave enough to get up there and do it. Yes, I would have done it and would have been bad as well. Aint that half the fun.

Where is the new year going?

BI am an idiot! Dr. says it is ok and not to worry. Now I can rest easy