HELL YEAH IM BACK!
JESUS CHRIST, ITS BEEN QUITE A LONG TIME SINCE MY LAST POST AND IM SORRY ABOUT IT BUT I BARELY HAD TIME TO DO A THING! THIS WORKING-FAMILY-FRIENDS THING JUST KEEPS ME UP ALL DAY AND BARELY HAVE TIME FOR ANY OTHEER STUFF!
IVE BEEN VERY BUSY LATELY BUT ALSO SPENDING A LOT OF TIME WITH MY BOYFRIEND (NOT AS MUCH AS ID PREFER SINCE HE STUDIES UP TILL 11:00 OM...QUITE LATE SO WHEN HE COMES BACK NOT ONLY IM EXHAUSTED BUT ALSO READY FOR SLEEPING :/
BUT I DO CAN SAY I SPEND MOST OF THE DAYS WITH MY BEST FRIEND NATTIE, I GUESS I COULD SAY THAT NOT DOING MUCH BECAUSE ITS COLD AROUND HERE AND WEVE BECOME SOMETHING LIKE TWO BEARS ONLY WAITING FOR THE SPRING (NOT TO SAY SUMMER) ARRIVES ASAP!
SO WE BASICALLY SIT, WATCH TV, GRAB A BITE TO EAT, LAUGH AND SOMETIMES WE DONT EVEN DO ANYTHING AT ALL...I THOUGHT ABOUT IT YESTERDAY WHEN I WAS ABOUT TO TAKE OFF AND SHE SAID "AINT U GONNA STAY TO WATCH 16 AND PREGNANT?" -SHE LOVES THAT SHOW- AND I SAID "OK SURE" BUT THEN WHEN I WENT HOME I REALISED WE HAD DONE NOTHING ALL AFTERNOON...STILL IT SEEMS WE ENJOY EACH OTHERS COMPANY
SHE HAD SURGERY LAST WEEK, NOTHING MAJOR, BUT STILL IS FEELING QUITE NEEDED FOR SOME FRIENDLY COMPANY I ASSUME...THAT LEADS ME TO SOMETHING IVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT: I COULD SAY " I LOST A FRIEND" QUITE SOMETIME AGO...I "LOST HER" BECAUSE I LOST CLOSENESS TO OUR FRIENDSHIP, AND I LOST FEELINGS FOR HER, SINCE SHE RUN AWAY FOR NO REASON SOME TIME AGO...SHE MADE SOME MISTAKES (NOT ONLY WITH ME, BUT I MEAN IN GENERAL) WHICH I DONT REALLY CARE ABOUT...I TRY NOT TO TAKE THAT EVEN AS A RELEVANT THING TO SAY ON ANYBODY...BUT OF COURSEE WE ALWAYS TEND TO GIVE SOME SORT OF SPACE TO THE THINGS WE DONT LIKE OR APPRECIATE...WHY IS IT THAT WE DO THAT?
I MEAN, A RELATIONSHIP CAN GO JUST EXCELLENT FOR MANY YEARS BUT THEN IF SOMETHING GOES WRONG FOR A COUPLE DAYS IT SEEMS ALL THAT HAS A LOT MORE WEIGHT TO US THAN ALL THE REST OF MANY MANY WONDERFUL JOURNIES...IT KEEPS ME THINKING A LOT...BUT I GUESS THAT IS EXACTLY COMPARABLE TO SAYING THAT IF YOU SPILL A BIT OF BLACK INK ON A PIECE OF WHITE FABRIC THERES ABSOLUTELY NO WAY NO ONES GONNA SEE IT...ITS THERE, NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO...I WISH WE COULD SOMETIMES SEE THE WHOLE FABRIC AND NOT THAT SPOT...ITS HARD FOR US AS HUMAN BEINGS TO DO IT I ASSUME, ITS PART OF OUR NATURE NOT TO DO IT!
IN OTHER NEWS, MY HAIR GREW SO LONG AND IT GOT QUITE BLONDE THROUGH TIME, IVE ALWAYS BEEN A COPPER BLONDE BUT I THIINK ITS BLONDER THAN EVER BEFORE, SO I TOOK A FEW PICS
JESUS CHRIST, ITS BEEN QUITE A LONG TIME SINCE MY LAST POST AND IM SORRY ABOUT IT BUT I BARELY HAD TIME TO DO A THING! THIS WORKING-FAMILY-FRIENDS THING JUST KEEPS ME UP ALL DAY AND BARELY HAVE TIME FOR ANY OTHEER STUFF!
IVE BEEN VERY BUSY LATELY BUT ALSO SPENDING A LOT OF TIME WITH MY BOYFRIEND (NOT AS MUCH AS ID PREFER SINCE HE STUDIES UP TILL 11:00 OM...QUITE LATE SO WHEN HE COMES BACK NOT ONLY IM EXHAUSTED BUT ALSO READY FOR SLEEPING :/
BUT I DO CAN SAY I SPEND MOST OF THE DAYS WITH MY BEST FRIEND NATTIE, I GUESS I COULD SAY THAT NOT DOING MUCH BECAUSE ITS COLD AROUND HERE AND WEVE BECOME SOMETHING LIKE TWO BEARS ONLY WAITING FOR THE SPRING (NOT TO SAY SUMMER) ARRIVES ASAP!
SO WE BASICALLY SIT, WATCH TV, GRAB A BITE TO EAT, LAUGH AND SOMETIMES WE DONT EVEN DO ANYTHING AT ALL...I THOUGHT ABOUT IT YESTERDAY WHEN I WAS ABOUT TO TAKE OFF AND SHE SAID "AINT U GONNA STAY TO WATCH 16 AND PREGNANT?" -SHE LOVES THAT SHOW- AND I SAID "OK SURE" BUT THEN WHEN I WENT HOME I REALISED WE HAD DONE NOTHING ALL AFTERNOON...STILL IT SEEMS WE ENJOY EACH OTHERS COMPANY
SHE HAD SURGERY LAST WEEK, NOTHING MAJOR, BUT STILL IS FEELING QUITE NEEDED FOR SOME FRIENDLY COMPANY I ASSUME...THAT LEADS ME TO SOMETHING IVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT: I COULD SAY " I LOST A FRIEND" QUITE SOMETIME AGO...I "LOST HER" BECAUSE I LOST CLOSENESS TO OUR FRIENDSHIP, AND I LOST FEELINGS FOR HER, SINCE SHE RUN AWAY FOR NO REASON SOME TIME AGO...SHE MADE SOME MISTAKES (NOT ONLY WITH ME, BUT I MEAN IN GENERAL) WHICH I DONT REALLY CARE ABOUT...I TRY NOT TO TAKE THAT EVEN AS A RELEVANT THING TO SAY ON ANYBODY...BUT OF COURSEE WE ALWAYS TEND TO GIVE SOME SORT OF SPACE TO THE THINGS WE DONT LIKE OR APPRECIATE...WHY IS IT THAT WE DO THAT?
I MEAN, A RELATIONSHIP CAN GO JUST EXCELLENT FOR MANY YEARS BUT THEN IF SOMETHING GOES WRONG FOR A COUPLE DAYS IT SEEMS ALL THAT HAS A LOT MORE WEIGHT TO US THAN ALL THE REST OF MANY MANY WONDERFUL JOURNIES...IT KEEPS ME THINKING A LOT...BUT I GUESS THAT IS EXACTLY COMPARABLE TO SAYING THAT IF YOU SPILL A BIT OF BLACK INK ON A PIECE OF WHITE FABRIC THERES ABSOLUTELY NO WAY NO ONES GONNA SEE IT...ITS THERE, NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO...I WISH WE COULD SOMETIMES SEE THE WHOLE FABRIC AND NOT THAT SPOT...ITS HARD FOR US AS HUMAN BEINGS TO DO IT I ASSUME, ITS PART OF OUR NATURE NOT TO DO IT!
IN OTHER NEWS, MY HAIR GREW SO LONG AND IT GOT QUITE BLONDE THROUGH TIME, IVE ALWAYS BEEN A COPPER BLONDE BUT I THIINK ITS BLONDER THAN EVER BEFORE, SO I TOOK A FEW PICS
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nikonphoto80:
i think you look amazing, glad you made it back.
nobodysirius:
You're such a cutie Stingray...ignore your brain. I think you're ink stain analogy is right on the mark. It's extremely frustrating to feel that sense of disposability about someone over singular instances. In Japanese culture, when something breaks, they put great effort and spare no expense to fix it. They often exaggerate crack and chips with gold filigree. After that, it becomes even more valuable in there eyes. Wish we could suck up more of that atitude.