It's been awhile, life seems to be moving right the hell along. Can't complain about anything, still don't sleep well, but that's just who I am. I've never been able to sleep well, the nights seem to be the time that I step inside myself and really just feel like I'm at ease, you would think during those time I could just drift off to a wonderful dream, but most nights when I fall asleep it's for a little while and my dreams are of a fucked up past and hard life. Now that times are easy and things seem to be moving so slow, I feel like I'm lost. I don't really know what to do, it's a good thing I have the friends that I do and the people I love, cause they are really the ones who keep me level. I love them for that, it's not something they consciously do, it's just their effect on me. I am really looking forward to moving along in school, most of what I'm doing now is stuff that I've been doing my entire life and feel like I'm going to get bored with it, it's a good thing the semesters are short. I'm hoping that as I move farther along the harder it will be for me. Keep my mind a little more occupied in class. I've started at the gym again, cause.......Well I'm a fatshit I guess is the term I use most often. It's time for me to get back into shape and start taking care of myself again. Got to get that beach body going on, hahahahaha, I've never had a beach body, but none-the-less I've got to work off this post-deployment gut I've got going on. It's definitely not flattering, I'll never get a date like this. It's a good thing I have such an outgoing personality, I'd never get laid. OH well, time to sign off folks, it's one of my best friends birthdays today, time to party and see what kind of trouble I can get myself into. You all stay beautiful, peace out kids 