stillwandering

Merry mother fucking Christmas, I'm in ohio with my dad and sisters, the family is all here, in all it's dysfunctional glory. More and more I understand why I stay away, I love seeing my sisters and they are getting to old and growing way to pretty for me to deal with, all I keep thinking is boyfriends and that is a nightmare I don't need, I think about how retarded I was as a young boy and it freaks me out because I can't stand the thought of them dating I guy like me. My dad is the same way, he wants to buy a gun, I'll lose my mind the first time they bring boys home and I know, I know it's the same old body of thinking everyman has ever had. I can't help it though, they are my little sisters. It's weird how different my mind set is for my brother, he has a girlfriend and he's only 12, the first question I asked was have you kissed her yet? But that same thought turned around on my sisters is gut wrenching to me. I guess I'm a bit of a sexist, and fall into the same stereotype, it's ok for a guy to fuck all the girls he wants or can, but when a girl does it, she's a whore. I've never thought that way, but for my sisters, I guess it freaks me out. I have never judged a woman for being free sexually, I kind of like it when a woman knows what she wants in bed and it's a huge turn on when they are open minded and experienced. I guess as long as my sisters are educated and protect themselves from it I can deal, but so many girls go sheltered live these lives, like my brother I guess it's part my job to talk to them about this stuff. I don't know I guess I'm just rambling, I'll do what I can to help them live a full life.