stiggy56

So typical. I can never seem to just be happy. Once I feel like things are going great and moving foreward, I take two steps back to zero.

SO the issue is that my relationship currently is unstable. She's home sick and wants to move back to Indiana. She's very unrealistic in her ideas and has no plan. I can't live that way. I have to know the next step and try to make wise choices along the way. Point is, I wonder why I trust.

She wanted me to move with her! Hahahaha! Therer's nothing there! For or her, except her family and friends, who by the way love and dislike her. She would like it if I gave up everything I was and all my plans to make a better life, to live in a trailer in Indiana and work at the dollar store! I can't do that. And I don't expect her to want to stay if she can't away from home.

It's sad. I hope she can find joy or some kind of idea what she wants, cause dispite all my efforts to and her love for me, it's not enough to make it work.

Even if she did straighten it out I wouldn't trust her to keep things together. I know how to pick'em.

We'll still be friends but I'm not going down that road with her agian. I'd rather be alone than second guessing my choices.